RanDUMB Blurb #5: Young and In Love

OK so how does that happen? I happen to have encountered folks that are my age and are married with children and are happy. Is it an anomaly or is this something that can really happen when two people love each other. I would hope that after being together like 8 years and having three kids together you would just go ahead and tie the knot. What I want to know is how do you know that this is the person you want for the rest of your life at 21? Personally, I have yet to meet a guy that I could see myself marrying (maybe but certain things just WERE NOT in order for them). I've met my share of candidates, however, nothing deep enough for me to be like OMG...he's it. I think I have become jaded from trying to "look" for a mate when it really shouldn't be my concern. I think that when young love occurs people have been together for a while and haven't been jaded by experience and have not been with people outside of one another. I see nothing wrong with it...I actually find it quite beautiful! I just know that in my mind that I haven't become the Bitter Black Woman, and probably will never be. I'm not hating but I've always wondered what could possibly make a 20 year old say "I wanna be with this person for the rest of my life". I have yet to encounter a man wants me as much as I want him (If he does, neither one of us has said anything...so this may not be a fair statement). Hell, I haven't even encountered a man I think I could co-parent with let alone be with. Young love is beautiful...I'm not rushing it though! When it happens I will know...and that's just that!

Bye Bye,
P.R. Reid

So It's Been A Long Time

Soooo much has gone on these past few months. I have taken leaps that I thought that I was too scared to take. I am currently just anticipating graduation, but I've also been keeping company with a pretty cool young fellow ;). In the midst of all of this, I can admit that my stress level is at an all time high...hopefully when Spring Break comes around I'll be able to mellow out and just chill. With my personal life there isn't too much too say, It's something that I am pretty secretive about and it is still a situation that I'm not trying to jump the gun with. I like the day by day thing. I am the most comfortable that I have ever been with a person (In a while actually) so I want to keep it fun and light! I am able to be me and he appreciates that. I promise to write more later, but right now I have to jet! Gotta a lot to say

Later,
P.R. Reid ;)

It's funny how a conversation changes the situation....

Today I am tired from sitting up and just talking practically ALL NIGHT! I will admit the person I was on the phone with wasn't whom I was expecting. I mean I'm not repulsed by him or anything but he wasn't exactly who I was digging at the moment! He now understands the way I am, and why I'm not looking to just move on into a relationship at the moment! Besides all that, I had a blast talking to him on the phone...it was definitely a lot of laughs and at this point I think I really needed that! He seems genuinely interested in me and getting to know me and not other parts of me, which is a HUGE relief! While I don't believe in putting all my eggs in one basket i'll just wait and see with him! Just because he made me smile...doesn't mean I'm smitten!! I feel he definitely has potential now...he's in the door but can he stay there??? I WONDER....

New slogan for 2009...."Step up or STEP OFF!!!" Ah hahahaha

Peace and Blessings
P.R. Reid :)

RanDUMB Blurb 4: People who just can't let shit GO!!!!

I'm so tired of people who can't let things go...YES I am dealing with a person that just won't let shit be!!!! Whatever happened is in the past...LET IT GO!!! I just don't have the time to keep on going through crap because all of a sudden you wanna settle things. I ain't got the time...I'll make the time when I feel I'm ready....I also hate it when I get mad after I've let shit GO...ughhhhh!!! But I'm still smiling....SEE!!!!

Peace and Blessings

P.R. Reid :)

Call Me Crazy: Purple Rain brings me to TEARS

I was sitting around last night listening to a live version of Purple Rain and it just made me think about a lot of things that have happened and I began to get very emotional. I began to think about friends that I've let go and how maybe things just weren't meant to be with other friends. The second verse always touches me because it's happened to me before!!! I realized that sometimes you have to give up certain things in order to look towards the future. I sat and listened to the words thoroughly and just went into deep thought! I began to think about things that caused fall out with friends over pettiness and it genuinely made me sad. The third verse was one of hope for me...its about moving on and "reaching for something new". Things might be real shitty right now but things will change....and that's when I realized the song actually has a very spiritual message to it. Regardless of what happened you wish people well and you pray that they find happiness or "Purple Rain". When I think of Purple Rain, I think of it as the ultimate realm of happiness and it also reminds me of unconditional love....like the love God and his son Jesus Christ has for all of us (whether we believe it or not). I think we all need to achieve our own "Purple Rain" and sometimes that means moving on and becoming stronger and wiser than we were before...it also means that we forgive even if we don't feel as if we can. The song is about forgiving and seeking forgiveness at the same time. Realizing that if you love someone you have to let them follow the path they choose...if its not meant to be you just wish them them happiness and love them unconditionally!!!

I didn't mean for this to become an analysis of a song, but those are just my thoughts of the song...LOL!!! By the way, the guitar solo is sick...its enough to almost make you want to cry!!!

Peace and Blessings
P.R.Reid

Live Version of Purple Rain that ALMOST brought me to tears (click link)

Early Morning Blurb: Hindsight is Always 20/20

As I sit up at 10 before 5...I am left wondering...WHAT THE FUCK!!!! You ever had that person you were just so infatuated with and then looking back on it is now like WTF???? I just had one of those moments...How do you just become disgusted by someone??? I've been caught in a few situations of this sort and let me tell you...it is soooooooooooooooo funny!!!! It's almost like things that make you go HMMMMM...AIN'T IT FUNNY!!!! Never believed in calling folk out because its a waste of energy and its not like the nigga is going to know you're talking about them anyway LOL. I really try not to feel no type of way but hindsight always hits me and it tells me "that nigga is REALLY wack" LOL. You ever just heard things dudes say and its like...OMG...WACK!!! Then you know exactly how I'm feeling....

Well I'm going to try and lay down now.............

Peace and Blessings
P.R.Reid :)

RanDUMB Blurb #3: Music That Takes Me Places

For some odd reason music reminds me of places but more specifically things that I may want to be doing at a specific time of the day. Anything done by Maxwell puts me in the 5 o'clock world. You may ask what I mean LOL. Basically I see myself getting home on a friday afternoon kicking up my feet and having a martini. When I'm listening to "Don't You Know That" by Luther Vandross I think of laying in bed with someone special around midnight cuddling!!! Tell me that song doesn't take you somewhere...I DARE YOU!!! I might be wierd but music really puts me in the mindset of things! But that's the ranDUMB Blurb for now....hehe!!!

Peace and Blessings

P.R.Reid :)

Sweet Dream or a Beautiful Nightmare?????

Lately I've been having very vivid dreams about my future. They begin with me being married with children...twins...a boy and a girl! But the funny thing is...the faces seem to be missing! I know it sounds strange but I'm being so serious! I think it's a wonderful notion and maybe the cosmos is preparing me for a future mate and a happy life as a wife and mother, a notion that I just REALLY started believing in! Maybe I'll be able to put a face to "dream guy" soon LOL. Quite frankly I think it's a little too soon to be thinking about marriage and kids, but can you really control what your subconscious is doing???? Right now my main concern is getting my life together and graduating from school!! I feel like I'm jumping the gun having these dreams....I don't know where they came from!!! I think dreams are windows to our souls, minds, and hey maybe even our future!!! If this is true then I could have possibly seen my happily ever after...hmmm...interesting!!! All I have to do is get my life in order than see if I can find the man with the missing face! LOL. All I know is that I found it wierd that it atleast wasn't a crush or someone I know or someone in the past or present...not that its that many but still...I NEED SOMETHING!!! Maybe this is a sign of things to come for me...WHO KNOWS....

With that being said I'm going to bed

Peace and Blessings
P.R.Reid :)

RanDUMB Blurb #2: Facebook Thuggery and Things

This is an issue that seems to bother people in the Facebook community. People want to scream and shout all over facebook how can't nobody see them and all this and all that...but are the main one acting real shook when it's time to show and prove. Honestly, I don't get involved with it because I'm not here to be anyones entertainment. So for those who are "Facebook Thugs" thank you for constantly making me laugh with your idle threats and reckless behavior...against other people of course LOL!!! Life is too short to be feeling some kind of way....over Facebook!!! While I may find it amusing, in reality its just sad that you have an internet persona but you're as meek as a mouse out in public...AIN'T IT FUNNY!!!

Another thing that bothers me about Facebook is that people will practically post their LIVES and then get mad people know their business. Look, I know we all need to vent, HOWEVER that's what a journal is for a diary...a BLOG!!! You have to be prepared for feedback (good and bad) when you do post personal information about your feelings on these sites. I wanted to do this because I always have a lot on my mind so its just easier to just create something like this and just WRITE

This is it...For now...Hehe

Peace and Blessings
P.R.Reid :)