Completion feels awesome!!!!

I am PRACTICALLY done with this application!!! It feels awesome!

"IT"=Sex Appeal

I have been told that I have something calledIT! Now I'm not exactly sure what it is but I guess I can take it as a compliment! I guess it could be sex appeal, but I don't know! Personally, I don't see it LOL! I'm just me...silly girl just finally comfortable with herself! I think I am the most sexually awkward person I know. I'm just sayin, I just don't really consider myself sexy. I think I prefer sensual LOL! But any who that's just whats been on my noodle for a while! I've always been the play the background/reserved/quiet girl and that pretty much suits me just fine! It could be a problem in future relationships, but right now I'm coolin! Lovin life and those who CHOOSE to be in it!

But maybe, that isn't such a bad thing...I've always kinda wished I could see myself as the ultra sexy vixen type of gal! Hmmmm I may have to explore this side a bit more...she's in there she is just waiting to come out! Wonder who will be so lucky as to experience it hehe :P

Sexy may not be ALL bad!

P. R. Reid

Love

Do I believe in love at first sight? ABSOLUTELY NOT! I do believe it exists, but I feel that it's something that takes a while to happen! I have loved and I have lost, and I truly believe that's life. I have not been ruined by it, only made stronger and smarter. I'm not so beaten up by love that I don't believe in it because I still feel like *HE* is somewhere waiting for me! I will not give up hope but I will NOT let down my guard...yet :)

P.R. Reid

My Feelings: Vulnerability=Weakness

Every now and then we all go through phases where we feel that our emotions get the best of us. I know that I do my best to conceal how I feel about things and people. At times, I feel like I am doing myself a disservice by being so closed in, but then I realize that it's kept me from getting hurt on numerous occasions. I guess I have it set up in my mind that being vulnerable to new experiences/people/emotions equates to weakness on my part. I say this because mainly because I am scared of rejection especially when it may come to a person I currently like or enjoy spending my time with. I feel that if he knows too much, he could potentially use it to hurt me. It may be a really jacked up way of looking at things, but for some it works. Lately, I've been noticing that I miss the interactions I have with people...well one person in particular, but my vulnerable side tells me to keep myself as busy as possible. I've had points where I've been a mess, but I've managed to "keep it together" and that shit is SO HARD. I may look like I've got a pretty good grip, but I'm crying hard on the inside. I like to consider myself an "Emotional Nonchalant" kind of person. Meaning I CARE SO MUCH THAT I COULD CARE LESS! After a few situations that I've been through I adopted a "Love don't live here anymore" or "I have time for love...later" or my all time favorite "I'll be damned if I let another person hurt me" mentality. This has caused me to not be as content in situations as I should be, thus causing me to always question ones motive.
Also, I've been feeling like being vulnerable may not always be a bad thing! After all, my emotions are what make me a woman, and to say that I lack emotion is an outright lie! I have never thought of myself weak as a whole, but I do admit that I definitely have my weaknesses. I also think that vulnerability spawns from, I hate to say it, INSECURITY! I am intellegent, a decent person, not bad looking, and I have a body that makes men do a double take. It's a shame I have my insecurities. I fear that I am not good enough or will ever be able to sustain a healthy relationship with whom I choose. This has has materialized into "I am not ready for a relationship" or "Maybe I'm not good enough or I'm not what he really wants".

I know that I have a long way to go but THANK THE LORD I'm not where I used to be. Being vulnerable has caused me to miss out on a few things as well, and it is time for that to stop! I guess I could stop letting issues from the past be a hindrance to those I decide to let in my life. I could learn to better trust people and leave the lines of communication open! Finally, I really need to be more open with myself and others because it's OK for me not to have it together all the time! I need to stop being so damn afraid!!!

P.R. Reid

If I were and actress and could play ANY part!

It would definitely have to be this woman!!! YES, Billie Holiday! In high school, I had to do a dramatic interpretation of her life for my American History class! I read her autobiography and I read A LOT of other literature on her. Something about this woman really grabbed my attention! If I ever would want to play ANYONE in a movie or play (sans the singing), this would be exactly who I would want to play! POINT BLANK PERIOD.COM!!!

Ladies & Gentleman: No MORE EXCUSES!

It does exist!!!!

The Results: Flexi Rod Set

First off YES! I put on make up...don't do it often but I was bored...don't judge me! I didn't like the "poofiness" of it so I decided to pin the sides back!

I kinda like it...took way too much time than I'm willing to spend on my hair, but it's kinda cute!! YAY Me!!!! I'm actually kinda proud of my make up! The third pic might be a Facebook Pic! LOL